well, today i experience 2 things..
a good thing and bad thing...
well lets start evrything wif the good one!!=)
during assembly, there was this person, talking abt success..
he was so funny!!!
hahaa
i kept laughing like crazy, n i guess nt only me
the whole sch was like, laughing til their chins almost dropped
hahahhaa=)
well
suddenly i dun have the mood to talk abt it.. hahaha
for sure, he was like very interesting!! wif all the voices.. sounds funny.. haha
and i just realised that i had to do sth on my study... on my school stuff..
i must study
umm
not only study.. i must WANT it.. DESERVING like no one ever do more...
because...
i just got my bio paper.. i failed....><
i was like, omg... i cant believe it...!!!! you know what.. i've failed badly this term!!!! really, really badly!! worse than last year...
I DID STUDY... STUDY HARD...for few days..myb for ppl's std, i didnt study that hard.. but i noe myself, i studied as hard as b4 fye...-.-
and it's just making me even more depressed....that i couldnt find anything 2 beg 4 mark frm ms yong..-.- then suddenly this fren of mine wanted 2 take a look at my paper..i gave her.. while she was looking at it,
i was so angry... i smashed the wall... few times... well, till my knuckles were like, swollen..(but aft half an hour it got smaller, a bit..)and bruised.. for sure..
i was depressed.. dunno wat to do...
then evrybody was goin 4 recess, i think there were just me n that friend,the 2 of us (oh, and i 4got to tell ya, she's one of ppl i trust most in this whole world.. beside my fam n my friend in indo) inside our class... or my wif some other ppl but i didnt look at them..
we were talking like, omigosh.. i was so angry n i couldnt relax at all..
she was trying to comfort me, but ya.. exactly aft she had asked me sth (i guess she asked me whether i felt like crying or sth..) i cried.. suddenly it was like, my tears just flow down lidat...like, cannot stop cann.. i was trying to laugh.. but ya.. still cried..
the worst thing is,
i made my friend cried also..
i made you cried..
i'm sorry...
deeply sorry..
yea, i now regret hitting the wall..
actually i dont do that, it's only when i cant stand my anger anymore, then i hit the wall.. only 2 times in my life.. the other one was last year.. oh, myb b4, but i nv hit the wall, i did worst i guess...myb cuz i usually keep things inside. like, what i tell ppl abt my feeling is often nt true..
but i really thank you..4 listening to all my craps..^^ you've done all you can to listen to me... thou i noe im boring..
im nt mentioning the name, i noe u noe who i mean
thx ya...=)
i'll keep my promise.