im longing for a holiday
im waiting for a holiday
im dreaming of a holiday
im sorry yeah, seems like these few days ive been posting abt tiredness..
or sth close to that...
really, i feel like that
i think i need more sleep at night, so that im nt gonna sleep in the class anymore..
or at least, i nt gonna daydream in class anymore..
wad i do is burdening me.. like, 1000kg or i dunno how heavy.
hahahh..
oh ya.
IMPORTANT.. XP
i 4got to tell ya, when last sunday i went to lyn's church right..
at the end of e service, the pastor asked abt whose family isnt here with us..
then i raised my hand lo.. n the person next to me asked me if she can pray for me..
haha i feel so funny, then i told her.. like, actually im here to study. so im in spore alone n that's y my fam nt here.. and she got confused of wad to pray.. haha
so i guess finally she prayed 4 me to be strong..^^ thx auntie..=)
but then, it made me feel even more homesick!!!>< i wanted to cry man... i did really feel homesick..
so when suddenly lynette came to me aft dat, then i was like, omg....>< sheesh man..
i really cried.. (though only a little.. hahahh cuz i kept talking to myself nt to cry...at least, not to cry in front of evrybody... hahahahha)
oh and i realise, that now i've got family here..
at 1st, you know wad.. i was so scared if i wouldnt get any friends here.. esp the "non-scholars", if you understand wat im saying..>< really sorry, but it's wad i felt exactly last year.. during obs, as i recall.. even at night, when evrybody was sleeping already, i asked jackie sth abt "what she thinks abt the scholars" and "my fear".. sth like that..hahah actually i nv ever b willing to talk abt stuff like that to anybody.. but then i dunno how, it was just blurted out of my mouth.. hahahhh
it's like, never been that honest to my friend b4. hahahh but now, i know that it's not right.. and i nv ever imagine that i got wat we call "friends" here..
oh, out of topic ya.. btw, if i have friends.. or i have befriended someone,i'd treat them real seriously..my real friends.. and that's what makes me a damn boring person la..and usually my friends just walk away.. yeah..
oh ok, back to topic..
its not that ive forgotten abt my fam in indonesia. of course i still love them A LOT, and they irreplaceable (beyonce. hahaha) it's just that now i feel that i have a second home..oh no. a home.^^ it's my friends here.. umm... im not mentioning the names but i guess you know it..^^ (u noe, it's sth deeper.. as in, no need to mention the name.. hahaha can feel it?)
thx to you all..
really, really thanks.. i feel like home..
hahahhh
^^ i love you guys.=)