[MuSic aDdicT] It's me, myself and I

[Je-A]
--Music Addict--
it's me, myself, and I

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

now that everything's been said.
everythin's been discussed.
i shouldnt feel sad anymore.
should i not..?

yea i shouldnt
even if the final was kinda hurtful.

but yes.
that yearly-repeated day of yours. that night.
just past twelve we talked.
and past then we cried.
of why everythin must went this way.

u felt cruel, but i said u shudn't
well. it's true.
i said, there's nothin wrong with what had happened earlier.
well. it's true. too.
and we shouldnt regret it.
we shouldn't.
but there's this feelin inside me that kept bleeding
it kept repeating
kept hurting
kept screaming inside
..

i dunno.
where did i go wrong..?
after years i've come along.
and tho i still remember how we sang those songs.
it was a long, long time of longing

i've found out one thing about myself.
i've found out about loving people without expecting anything in return.

BUT IT'S HARD.

i don't know what im doing now.
've been procrastinating enough.
now i gotta get up.
face up this life.
and look up.
take out this knife.

aaahh
im just gonna live.

hope you ever read this blog.

9:00 PM

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

omg. susi was super irritating dis morning!!!!

9:24 AM

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i feel uncertain

i never know what you want.
seems like you're pulling me near, then pushing me away again
and all your expressions
i can tell the difference
when you loved me and you don't anymore.
or cant i..?
am i that blind..?

oh please can you give me some light?
i'm tired of being alone.
it's like, having no one elso to hold onto.
i want to be independent
but im still human
i just hope i don't go off limits.

this whole frenship thing is killin me.
why would you not care
or was i wrong at the first time....
that u did care for me last time
never care for me even once...?
i don't know.
i just feel so uncertain

now i don't know what i'm gonna do
i don't know how too see
i don' tknow how to smile when i don't want to
i don't know how to face you.

and your new friend.

still shadowing me very clearly the memories of the past times
when you were near.
now evrything's changed.
i'll remain stationary.
and love you like before.
thanks for being my best friend. you still are.
i hope you knew it.
that it aint take short time to let the stains evaporate into thin air.
until then.

when you need me, just come here.
i'll be just still.

8:22 AM

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Friday, August 15, 2008

Love can be a many splendored thing

Can't deny the joy it brings

A dozen roses, diamond rings

Dreams for sale and fairy tales

It'll make you hear a symphony

And you just want the world to see

But like a drug that makes you blind,

It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is

It can tear you up inside

Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is

It doesn't care how fast you fall

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true

I played the game by all the rules

But now my world's a deeper blue

I'm sadder, but I'm wiser tooI swore I'd never love again

I swore my heart would never mend

Said love wasn't worth the pain

But then I hear it call my name(The trouble with)

The trouble with love isIt can tear you up inside

Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is

It doesn't care how fast you fall

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all

Every time I turn around

I think I've got it all figured out

My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'

Over and over again

This sad story always ends the same

Me standin' in the pourin' rainIt seems no matter what I do

It tears my heart in two

8:32 PM

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| hi it's me... |
Jessica Ardelia
| house exco |
| NYJC. ex-TKGian |
| 2nd sept 1990 |
owing to a contract with MOE, i stepped out of accelerated class, into an accelerated life in singapore.
a whale of time n a stressful time can you always find here:)

although i'm quite sensitive, i'm a kinda fun, especially when i'm happy, so please do make me happy~ :)

i love so many things~
i love music.
i love drums, piano and guitar. NEVER ask me play symphonic band instruments and the strings family. pls no^^ hahahs unless if u teach me, then maybe...hmm...=)
i love arts. a way of distressing.
i also love writing songs. well i just love music. :)

but my mostly loved are:
Jesus.Family.Friends.
and Melsy my cute little doggie!!! XD

ah.one last thing.
i love smiling;)